Thursday, November 1, 2012

working too fucking hard

I've had a breakthrough this week in that I've skipped classes three days in a row and might just not turn in two of the papers due, because I wanted the energy for this:

Less and less am I able to force myself to do anything these days other than what my heart knows I should be doing.

We work too hard on things that don't matter. Americans' expectations for themselves and others are insane. It is crucial to work hard on the things that do matter, like loving your kids and spouse and friends, and whatever your calling is (which may not be what you get paid to do), and to be a decent human being in your workplace. But beyond that, there's a shitton of insanity in our culture. A friend of mine who used to work in a mental health institute just told me about moms who would occasionally be checked in for nervous breakdowns, who would sleep 2 days straight when they weren't eating meals. NORMAL WOMEN NEEDING TO GO TO THE LOONEY BIN BECAUSE OF OVERWORK.

This is just crazy. We are not machines. We are not made for this pace of life. We are not made for constant interruption from a screen in our pocket. This is why we're overweight (not from iPhones, but from the cultural expectations that an increase in technological advances has created, which make us stress eat). This is why we have heart disease. This is why Mother Theresa said we have an epidemic of loneliness in our country. We just don't have time for connection - with our own souls, our kids, our extended family. We come home from work and eat crappy food and stare at faces on a panel in leiu of our friends' for three hours. We get judged for being lazy when we prioritize stillness over money.

Just because you are capable of something, does not mean you are required to do it. 

Crazy times, my friends. We live in very crazy times.